I was diagnosed with an eating disorder when I was 20, but I suffered much longer undiagnosed. For years I didn’t think I had
a problem because I was under the impression that an eating disorder meant that one did not eat anything at all. In reality,
eating disorders are much more complicated than that.
After years of struggling silently with an eating disorder, my body was so malnourished that I could not function properly. I was constantly cold, shaking, tired and my mind was being compromised. I was completely consumed by thoughts of food, exercising and worries of gaining any weight. I didn’t know what to do. Eventually I confided in my dad, and he found Melrose Center.
Treatment and recovery is not a straight line. It takes a lot of
time and hard work, and sometimes that meant that I went back and forth from intensive 24/7 treatment to less intensive
I needed Melrose and the staff there to feed me regular meals and food, so that my body could get to a healthy place. It took a long time, but I eventually learned what a real meal looked like, and that eating normal meals would not make me fat or overweight. They also helped me address the emotions and psychology behind my eating disorder. Seeing a therapist on a regular basis helped me to work through some issues that had led to and that were fueling the eating disorder.
The people at Melrose were concerned for both my physical and mental health, and this made all the difference. Melrose also taught me how to deal with life without turning to my eating disorder. They offered a variety of therapy groups, where I was able to learn so many different skills. I believe that Melrose saved my life; I would not be where I am today in recovery without them.